11/28/09
Life has been busy and very full the past couple of weeks.
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11/19/09
It's picture day here on the FOJ blog....hahaha

I thought it was high time for an update, except for a photo of Nik and I. Seriously, when will that ever happen? I'd really love a new look for it too, like some cool fonts for our names, but I can't figure that stuff out. Any takers? (read Beth Cain????) Totally joking.

Have a great day y'all.
11/17/09
Go here

yeah, I'm serious
11/12/09
Yesterday, I was visiting a very dear friend in the hospital who had exploratory surgery on a tumor in her neck. I came in just as the oncologist was talking with her.

The results aren't known yet and that particular doctor wanted a complete history and understanding of Beth so that when the results come in (and if they're positive for malignancy) then they'll be very prepared to start aggressive treatment right away.

This is a mother of 6 girls....! She has blessed me SO MUCH in the past year and a half. Her life has and love has spilled over into ours and my kids affectionately refer to her as 'Grandma Beth'. She's welcomed us into her family. But that's not all. She's raised 6 amazing women who have also welcomed us. I have been especially blessed by Melinda and Katherine. These two WOMEN OF GOD have shown me much, loved us greatly and are now hurting.

And, as she wrote (her surgery was in her throat so she couldn't talk post-op) about beth Moore's study 'believing God' that she's teaching at her church. She said she asked God to do anything it took to shake someone's world. And as she wrote it, she rolled her eyes, threw up her hands and I knew she understood. As Christians we're called to do much, to have faith and to believe. His plan is perfect. Beth knows that He's going to use her through this, even if it's just to show how strong her faith is with the unknown, and her thankfulness if everything is found out to be healthy.

I hope that if/WHEN God calls me to walk through something this hard(be it cancer, or a crazy adoption process, or losing a child), that I glorify God in the same way as these strong women of faith have done (and ARE DOING)
11/10/09
For the amount of people who read this blog I think I'm safe sharing this bit of info.

Chip is one...that usually means I'd be pregnant again. I'm not. And both Nik and I are itching for another. BUT, we're not sure how that 'other' beautiful, perfect precious sibling to our boys will come...

I have always felt the call to adoption; I have always thought that I would adopt. I've been on the phone a lot in the past few weeks with different agencies talking about different things. We in no way have the money to start the process. But, I got an email from a friend who's walking the journey through adoption and hers was such a story of trust. Financially, emotionally, Spiritually. I know finances aren't going to stop us from adopting if that's God's plan, but we just don't know if we should get the ball rolling?

My gut is saying that God is whispering "trust me, have patience and I will show you when" and most times I feel like He's saying look a little deeper, take a step further...you know? All this is to say, can you pray for us? Thanks.
11/6/09

364 days old

To my Charlie,
Tomorrow you will be 1. 1 year ago tomorrow I saw your face for the first time, felt your fingers wrap around mine and took in your crooked little toe. You took my breath away when you looked up at me from your little cocoon of darkness. November 6th was the day that changed me. Your brothers changed me too. But you awakened the joy that they had started. It wasn't until you came along that I realized how fast it all goes and how I shouldn't wish away the tantrums or the snot all over my pants, hands, cheek, knees etc. those snot infested places mean that someone had smooshed their face into me out of love...or joy.
You, my Chip, are going to do wonderful things. I've been told by more than two others that they've had dreams of you, serving the Lord. I couldn't ask for anything else, for any of you. But you seem to have always come to mind when I think of what God has called me, as a mother to do. To bring you three up to know the Fear of God and to be men of integrity.
I will dirty my knees everyday on yours and your brothers' behalf. I will do whatever I'm called as your mama. I love you, I know these words aren't much or they aren't eloquent, but they're your mom's love poured out to you, this day...on the eve of your first birthday. May you grow into a man that honours and brings glory to my God, your Creator.
 

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